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[11 Nov 2004|11:43am] |
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I completely forgot about this. I probably wouldn't of even ventured over here if I hadn't been exploring on the computer. Of course, that's what happens when you have nothing to do ALL DAY LONG...
...this is frustrating.
I WILL go out, I WILL get another job, and I WILL stop moping about like a little child every day of my PITIFUL LIFE!!!
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Tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow sounds good. I'll go out and look tomorrow.
In the meantime...I guess I'll take a nap or something.
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[11 Sep 2004|04:11pm] |
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Nothing much to say. Still unemployed.
Though I have begun to look for a job again. I feel so useless just sitting around the apartment. But needless to say, it's difficult. People keep asking to see 'papers', papers which I do not have. But when I tell them that, they immediately dismiss me.
...it's frustrating.
The only thing of interest I've done lately is go to the 'arcade' with the little youkai kid Rinku a while back. It was entertaining enough. I plan to eventually go back.
Where is everyone? I've failed to see many updates lately.
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[04 Aug 2004|04:19pm] |
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...You might be wondering how I could possibly be writing at this time in the day when I shouldn't be getting off work for a few more hours.
Well, as of today, I am currently umemployed.
And it's still hard to believe.
She had some nerve, some DAMN nerve to do what she did, to act like that when she's supposed to be a ningen of 'higher ranking', supposedly.
But...maybe if I had been able to control my temper, maybe if I hadn't attracted the attention of almost every worker in the kitchen at that time...it wouldn't of turned out as bad as it did.
NO. I am finally seeing this entire game of her's clearly, and I am not and never was at fault. It was all her...the entire time...
I wasn't even aware of what Hope was planning on doing. I was only putting in a complicated order to the new cook at the time. It probably didn't help that it had been a busy day, I was tired, and the cook was some foreign woman who could not speak very fluent Japanese. But then, I felt someone put a hand on my shoulder, and turned around only to see Hope. I remember her seeming very happy about something, and telling me that I was doing a good job. I only thanked her for the compliment, thinking she would then leave me to take care of some other business around the restaurant.
Even though I want to, I'm not going to try and avoid saying what she did next.
She grabbed my butt. SHE GRABBED MY BUTT. Even though I'm sure she was trying to get away with it without me noticing, I FELT IT.
Now, I could handle her touching me in strange ways, and I could take the so-called 'sexual' remarks she whispered in my ear...
But THAT...that was something that I was NOT going to take sitting down, from a NINGEN, of all beings. I'm the Prince of Reikai, for god's sake, and no one is allowed to touch me like that! NO ONE!!
So, needless to say, it made me quite upset, and I ended up yelling at her right in the middle of the kitchen, in front of all the workers, to leave me alone. I can still see her expression...I honestly do not think that she expected me to stand up to her like that.
But of course, she had to protect her 'oh-so-perfect' reputation and ended up firing me on the spot, saying I was 'rude and causing uncalled for disruptions during work hours', which is bullshit.
So now I'm here at the apartment. I must admit, though, I do feel a little shaken up about this...How could I have been stupid enoug to let it escalate to this? Shizuru even kept trying to warn me about it, but I wouldn't listen. Guess I owe her an apology now...
I just don't what to think anymore. I guess I'll just stay at the apartment for a while.
You know, one time when I was watching television, there was some commercial that said when something bad happens to you, you should drown your sorrows in ice cream.
...I think we have ice cream...
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[13 Jul 2004|01:15am] |
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As you might notice, it is very late. This is just an update, since I noticed I haven't had one in a while.
Nothing eventful has happened lately, save for the whole grocery store fiasco with Hinageshi...since she has already touched on it, I don't think it needs to be summarized again. It IS nice to be talking to her once again, though...having her avoid me like heck was not very pleasant, as you might could tell.
I DID get to hit that idiot Matsuyo hard, though...Something I've been wanting to do since that incident in the alley and it was without a doubt the highlight of my week.
I probably should sleep now. Last week, I fell asleep on the job...and it's not fun to have two or three people screaming "Wake up, you have to keep working!" in your ear over and over again.
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[09 Jun 2004|11:20pm] |
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It's late here, but...I can't sleep.
I haven't written lately. Every day, it's the same routine; go to work, come back from work, sleep. I haven't time for anything else, not even eating...I think I've had only a sandwich in the past two days.
But I can't stop. Because then...Hope will be upset. And when she's upset...she does things. Things that make it so where I can't sleep at night. Like right now.
I don't really know why I'm getting so worked up, but...Hope just does things I don't see other ningens doing. Whenever she talks to me, she puts her hand on my chest and acts like it's completely normal. She places her hand on my back when I'm cleaning tables, she whispers things in my ear that are strange...it just...makes me feel uncomfortable. But...other people would notice if it was something really bad, right?
...My nerves might just be shot from my late nights. But could someone tell me, since I'm not really familiar with ningen actions as of yet...is what she does common? Am I just overreacting?
...maybe I am. But...as of now, I'm not going to ask for less hours.
I'm going to try and get some sleep now...
Oh, yes, before I forget, I thought since everyone else was doing this, I would as well...
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[22 Apr 2004|05:02pm] |
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No time to write. Just an update so everyone knows I haven't died. Hope has a computer and told me I could use it. But she'll be upset if I take too long. Must get back to work now.
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[14 Apr 2004|10:34pm] |
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Yes, the park again. I'm finding myself drawn there more and more each day...today, when work ended, I was there on the bench in less than ten minutes after I had left the restaurant, just watching the stars.
My lunch with Hope went quite weil, I suppose...she says that she'll most likely be putting me on as a waiter in a few days, though she said she'll have to supervise me for the first week or so to see if I'm doing it right.
But...that strange feeling was there again. I couldn't help it, and it was too strong for me to just ignore..why do I feel so uncomfortable around her? Sure, she kept touching me from time to time, but she was just being friendly...after all, we have known each other for quite a while now.
Therefore, I shouldn't be feeling this way.
But then why did I flinch every single time she even got near me? Why am I so afraid?!? There is nothing wrong with a boss acting like a friend to one of their employees, and I'm going to have to keep telling myself that, because if Hope notices that I'm acting strangely around her, she might fire me...
I'm going to need to sleep on this...
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[13 Apr 2004|10:00pm] |
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I just got back from the restaurant. For some inexplicable reason, I found myself wanting to go the park after I left and just sat on the bench for a while, thinking about everything that's happening...
Hope and I ended up working my hours out. I'm going to be working a few extra hours now, but I don't mind...in fact, I'm actually finding work almost enjoyable now. But...
I know it sounds strange, but Hope was acting a little...weird while I was in her office. I don't know how, but it made me uncomfortable in a way. She even had her hand on my leg at one point...but I really think that she didn't mean to. Just one of those involuntary actions, right?
Of course. I don't think I'm getting enough sleep. That's why I'm feeling so strange.
Tomorrow is the lunch date Hope and I planned, so that she can tell me about the basics of being a waiter. I might become one soon, which will be great, because being a busboy was beginning to get tiring.
Well, I'm pretty much exhausted. Night.
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[11 Apr 2004|11:31am] |
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............
I'm still in shock from yesterday.
I'm going to ask Hope if I can start working more. It will help keep my mind off...things.
....There is really nothing else that I can say.
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[05 Apr 2004|08:14pm] |
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Owwww...
I just woke up a half-hour ago, and am now wondering what the heck happened.
Yesterday was quite an interesting day, however...if you like rough things like fist fights, which I don't. x_x
Well, I went to work like every other day. I don't know why, but yesterday was an exceptionally busy day. I don't think I've ever cleaned so many tables in one hour. And everyone was shoving me and calling me 'slow'...it wasn't very pleasant, that's for sure. But then Hinageshi came in, which made me feel at least a bit better, seeing someone I knew...strangely enough, before I could get a chance to talk to her, she was leaving once again, which was awfully strange...o.o But she accidentally ran into a waitress, which pretty much caused chaos to break out among the ningens.
Thankfully, it didn't last long, but then the real trouble started...Matsuyo was upset because he was sure we would lose our jobs, which we DIDN'T, and I, losing my temper with him, accidentally shoved him into the wall, which was a mistake...
He ended up dragging me behind the building, with Hinageshi not far behind. The last I remember clearly would have to be him punching me in the face...then, there were a lot of blurry objects, and deafening voices...Matsuyo kept kicking me...x_x
When he finally stopped hurting me, I tried to stand up, and the first thing I saw was him throwing Hinageshi into a dumpster. Now, since I heard her trying to protect me, this made me upset, so with the last little bit of strength I could gather up, I managed to unlock the top without Matsuyo noticing.
I paid for it, though, with yet another hit in the face. x_x That's pretty much all I remember after that except saying something to Hinageshi and everything going black...
Gosh, I'm tired...I think I'll retire early tonight...must get up my strength for tomorrow...
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[29 Mar 2004|09:52pm] |
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Work, work, work, work, work, work, work...IS THAT ALL I'M GOOD FOR?!?!?!
I've been working like crazy for the past few days, and I'm exhausted....would write more, but this is the first time I have the chance to sleep in quite some time....
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[20 Mar 2004|07:06pm] |
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I must admit, I AM getting a bit lazy when it comes to updating this livejournal...but I promise not to give it altogether. After all, I have made a commitment, and I plan not to break it...
Though I think I have adequate things to blame my lack of updating on...
My life is a strange one, alright...Though Hinageshi has already covered the incident between us, I thought I would touch on it again...
Yes, I did take my shirt off.
I had to, though!!! Believe it or not, I didn't have that many options at the moment...it was either I take my shirt off, Hinageshi take her shirt off, or we both just remain stuck to one another for all eternity. x_x
...and I still haven't gotten my shirt back from Hinageshi...thankfully, I have plenty, but that was one of my favorites, really.
In other news, I went back to work today for the first time in quite a while. Hope was happy to see me, though she did question the scar on my cheek...I just told her I had cut myself on accident...and with my clumsiness, who WOULDN'T believe that?
...Something is still bothering me, though...Hinageshi was acting so strange on the day of the 'superglue' incident...I have never seen her that way before. She's usually so chipper around others and myself, but that day, something was different. She seemed very nervous, and all it appeared she wanted to do was get away from me...
It must of just been the stress put on her while working in the temple...
I must wrap up this entry. Since I've missed so many days of work, I'm now working the night shift temporarily.
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[13 Mar 2004|11:54am] |
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This is the first time in four days that I've actually been strong enough to walk over to the computer. Joy.
As for all of you, I have but one question...WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAPPEN TO ME?!?!
First, I manage to acquire a fever at the tournament. Then, I temporarily lose my sanity and end up being bopped over the head with Hinageshi's oar. Upon my return, I ride the subway with Botan and end up falling twice, and slamming my head against a metal pole.
And now...this.
All I did was push open a bedroom door...a nice, safe-looking bedroom door...Nothing bad ever happens to OTHER ningens who push open bedroom doors...
It wasn't my fault that Botan just happened to be changing clothes at the moment. And then before I could register what was going on, Hinageshi nearly runs me over, gains this really angry look, and then attacks me twice.
I don't blame her, though...I could tell she was just trying to protect Botan...
But now, I've got a huge gash in the back of my head, and a few large scars on my cheek. I've had bandages wrapped around my head for quite a while now, as well...Botan told me that I should be able to take them off soon, though...
In other news, I'm glad to hear that the guys found Kurama and managed to rescue him from Karasu....but I heard that he's in a 'catatonic' state...that's not good...
When they arrive back in Ningenkai, I must make a note to visit and see if I can help with anything...I'll be glad to be of some aid.
My head is starting to throb again...I'm going to take a nap.
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[07 Mar 2004|05:41pm] |
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Well, I've had an interesting few last days...
First of all, strangely enough, I spent the night in Shizuru's guest bedroom a few nights or so ago. I still don't really remember what was going on, or why the heck I wasn't allowed to sleep in my own home. All that Shizuru would tell me was that it was some sort of girl issue and then she gave me the key to her home. I didn't really question it...but...something in her expression...it gave me the feeling that something else had gone on while I was absent besides 'girl issues'...
Oh well, like the ningens say, ignorance is bliss.
I'm also quite surprised by Hinageshi's little...incident with Karasu. They got into practically a war, for heaven's sake! And now, as I've read, my ferrygirl doesn't remember any of it whatsoever...It will be interesting to see how this turns out, so you can be sure I'll keep an eye out^^
And plus...most, if not all(I'm not sure) of the guys are gone, having left to rescue Kurama. I hope that they'll be able to reach him before it's too late, I really hope...From the entry that he wrote while with Karasu, it does not look good.
....I really hope that they kill that evil, sick, sadistic crow. Really, I do. He deserves nothing more than to burn.
Okay, I think I should stop before my insults go too far...
And lastly, I've once again managed to make a fool of myself at work. I was carrying some dirty plates back to the kitchen area when some rotten kid stuck his foot out and tripped me, causing all of the plates to fall from my arms and plummet to the ground, breaking into millions of tiny pieces. Almost everyone laughed at me, and those who were not laughing were wearing quite angry expressions, especially Hope, who looked less than pleased...she'll be docking my pay, in the least..
That's really all I have to say that's of any importance. Work starts in an hour...
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[25 Feb 2004|07:32pm] |
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Well...I've finally returned to Ningenkai...I used to hate this place, but yesterday, it seemed to be some sort of paradise^^
...I still feel like an idiot, though...
But before I get into that...I have an new place to live! And it's with Botan, it turns out...AND Sayaka and Hinageshi. Yes, I know...it's three woman and one man. I'm a little nervous myself to see how it will turn out in the end...I mean, what if they parade around the house in lingerie or something of the sort? What if they talk about...'girl' things?!? Augh, this 'living with girls' thing isn't starting to sound too good all of a sudden.
I'm also glad to say that my sickness is pretty much gone! All I'm having now are occasional drowsy spells, but that might not even be related to my fever...the only bad part is that I believe that Hinageshi might have caught it from me! She didn't look too well when I saw her last...I do hope that she's alright..
Augh..my head is pulsing again..
The subway is an EVIL place, just so you all know.
Since we had to get my stuff from Hope's house, Botan suggested taking the subway. So we did..
For one thing, it's unbelievably crowded down there. I mean, how does one even THINK while they're down there?!?
But then it got even worse...when the train started, I ended up tripping and falling on my stomach hard, causing the other ningens to laugh at me. Botan and another man eventually helped me stand up once again, but my pride has been bruised, I'll tell you that...
It got even worse, though...when we were about to reach a stop, this incredibly loud shrieking of a whistle sounded off, and for some strange reason that remains unknown to me, I thought it was an alarm in Reikai, signaling that danger was near. So, naturally, I panicked. Actually, panicked would the understatement of the century...I jumped up and ran down the aisle screaming 'WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE!!' Let's just say I was a little sleepier than I thought..
And then the train stops in its tracks, with me still running, and what do I do? I end up falling and slamming my head against one of those metal poley thingies...Botan got a little freaked out, but I was okay...only this huge bruise in the the back of my head remains...
Ugh..I have to go to work now. A busboy's job never ends...
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[16 Feb 2004|10:29pm] |
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I had no idea that this sort of thing would, could happen...
Shishiwakamaru and Kuwabara are...are...dead...
And I witnessed it with my own eyes. I came to be a spectator and that's what I did, I spectated...and saw things that I never wanted to in my existence.
I thought that this tournament would turn out just like the ones that we've already been to, that we would be able to get away from it unscathed, without even so much as a single permanent injury, but now...things have escalated to levels I could never have foreseen.
At least there are some small joyous moments occuring. Both Yukina and Juri have been saved from their captors. I talked with each of them briefly, and although they both seem greatly shaken up, and have been crying on and off, at least they are in good health.
And tomorrow, Rinku will face that evil crow, Karasu. I do not wish to think of the ways that battle could end...and after that, Kurama will face Kuronue...
Maybe I should just stop attending the battles...Oh, who am I kidding? I know I will show up like always.
You know, the Prince of Reikai is not allowed to shed tears for ningens and demons....
I might make an exception.
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[15 Feb 2004|09:46pm] |
....I can't believe it....
The girls are gone. Kidnapped.
It's unbelievable, but unless I have sight problems, it's what I just read on Shishi's livejournal. Seems as though some lowly demons are trying to get the guys to participate in some sort of tournament to win the girls back.
Now I'm actually sort of glad I came to Ningenkai or I would of missed this, still stuck in my office in Reikai...
That does it.
I've already informed Hope that I must leave work for a while due to a 'family crisis'. Thankfully, she understood and did not question me about it. Finally, something goes right...
I'm heading straight for Genkai's temple before the guys leave for the tournament. They are going to take me along. THEY HAVE TO TAKE ME ALONG. My former workers are over there!
I don't care if I have to beg like a ningen child, but I WILL GO TO THAT TOURNAMENT!!
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[12 Feb 2004|07:31pm] |
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Bleh...I'm REALLY starting to dislike Ningenkai...why did I ever want to come here, WHY?!?!?!
I've only been working as a busboy for a few days and I already loathe the job. But yesterday was definitely one of the most humiliating moments of my life. I was hoping that nobody I actually KNEW would find me cleaning tables like a common ningen, but in walks Hinageshi, of all people!!
I immediately decided to spend the majority of the rest of my shift in the kitchen, and I was almost home-free without having been spotted, but then Hope had to come along and order me to clean THAT table. There must of been twenty tables in that restaurant, and she sends me to clean THAT one. Just my rotten luck x_x
What could I do, refuse? I ended up stomping out there with a rag and cleaning the table as fast as was possible, but Hinageshi actually fell off her chair when I arrived. I probably would of laughed if I hadn't of been so embarrassed. I mean, how strange must it look for a former employee to watch as her boss cleans her table like a lowly ningen? It was terribly humiliating.
Of course, when I was done, I just muttered a low 'have a nice day' like Hope had told me to and then immediately headed back for the kitchen.
Needless to say, it wasn't that good of a day, and today was not any better. All day, it was 'wash this table, clean off these dishes, mop up that mess...'
Now I wish I could just go back to Reikai, but my dad would just send me back, since I was the one who had wanted to come in the first place.
I must go now and sleep. I've never been this exhausted in my life-_- I hope tomorrow goes better, but I'm not counting on it.
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[10 Feb 2004|08:36pm] |
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After all the sweat, after all the toil, after all the backbreaking work...
I'm finally here.
In Ningenkai.
I guess it slipped my mind how chaotic it is here...x_x....
After arriving from Reikai, I immediately set out to find an apartment where I could stay for the time being. Of course, I had Jorge with me...you expect ME to carry my bags?!?! He was wearing a large overcoat, a top-hat, and sunglasses, so don't except any 'OGRE WALKS AMONG US' in the newspaper headlines anytime soon...
Well, anyways, it turns out that you need this thing called 'money' to move into an apartment, I discovered. So, instead of being in a nice, comfy place with a big-screen t.v, like I had imagined, I found myself stranded on a park bench.
What else was a Reikai prince to do? I began to wonder around town, looking for someone, anyone, who would take me in. A few hours passed, and I was still homeless and alone(well, except for Jorge, but he was whining so badly about how we should of stayed in Reikai that I pretended he wasn't there..)
Finally, in the early evening, Hope arrived. No, seriously, HOPE arrived. This very kind ningen named Hope saw me wondering around the streets and asked if I was interested in being a busboy for her restaurant. She said that if I was willing, she would allow me and my 'companion', as she called Jorge, to stay in the attic of her home.
Of course, I accepted her offer without knowing what a 'busboy' was. I thought it might of been some ningen title that people gave newcomers...
Worst mistake of my young...uh, I guess I mean old...life.
My hands are all pruny, probably because I've been washing dishes and clearing plates off tables all day. First time I've ever had to do work in my entire life, and it was NOT fun.
Ningens have also been bugging with questions about my 'headband'. Thankfully, I've put my pacifier away, but every once in a while, I'll sneak a suck or two in the kitchen when no one's looking^^
I'm actually using Hope's computer to type this, since my own is not hooked up yet. I hope that work goes better tomorrow than it did today.
I'm going to sleep now...
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[28 Jan 2004|06:56pm] |
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....I'm in complete shock...
But I'll back up a bit first.
First of all, my father DIDN'T come back early. Instead, he showed up in Reikai this afternoon, with an explanation that he had been reluctant to leave his 'paradise' so soon.
Which allowed all of my worrying to be for absolutely nothing...x_x
But anyways, when he did get back, I immediately approached him with my, might I add, 'genius' speech on why I should be allowed to take a very long vacation myself in Ningenkai. I skillfully added the parts in about the atmosphere in Reikai slowly damaging my health and how it's too crowded up here to even think-_-
My father's expression to all of this wasn't too pleasant, though, so I thought that surely he would refuse me.
But when I finished, he...he...actually...AGREED!!! I still cannot believe it...these were his exact words....'Hmm...it actually might be good for you to spend some time with the ningens. Maybe you would be able to learn about their customs and such...'
Truth be told, my father is very interested in the rituals and such of ningens. I think that's the only reason he even agreed...but that's alright, because soon, I'll be living in my very own place!!
Actually, at this very second, the ogres are waiting for me to finish this entry so they can pack up my computer. My next entry will be from my new home!!
Ningenkai, here I come!!
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